It didn’t take me long to isolate myself once I came back from serving overseas.
I was so eager to come condo & get out of the military.
While I’m proud to have served, it wasn’t at all what I thought it was going to be. At least I have medical cannabis to help me deal with the PTSD that has plagued me since I returned back to the States. It’s taxing to articulate the sort of trauma I experienced, however for sure, I saw things that nobody should ever have to see. And I lost people who were like siblings to me, however plus, I had to be next to them while they were killed. It was legitimately horrific. Before I learned how to get a medical marijuana card, I tried my best to be normal. But there was no normal left when I got home. For sure, my surroundings were common although I had no affixion to the life I had prior to fighting overseas. So all I could do was be alone. I was also deep into alcohol because that sort of numbed my pain & at least allowed me to fall asleep. But the nightmares consistently came & I sank deeper & deeper into isolation, anxiety & depression. Thanks to my family, my support group & the fact that medical marijuana is legal, I’m finding out that there can be a new normal. For sure, I’m forever changed by what I experienced. But with the help of therapy, my support group & the legal weed store, I’m making progress with my PTSD.